Have I mentioned that I LOVE being a teacher? It is one of my greatest blessings and joys. It fills me with purpose and happiness every day! I especially love that I've been teaching long enough now to SEE the people "my babies" are growing up to be. The past few days I've opened my mailbox to discover graduation announcements from former students. What a thrill! And last week, I was lucky enough to be the guest of a former student at his honor banquet. I was blown away that the sweet little boy I remembered actually still remembered ME.
And then one of my favorite bloggers,http://thelifeofsuz.blogspot.com/
posted THIS:
Why God Made Teachers
By Kevin William Huff
When God created teachers,
He gave us special friends
To help us understand His world
And truly comprehend
The beauty and the wonder
Of everything we see,
And become a better person
With each discovery.
When God created teachers,
He gave us special guides
To show us ways in which to grow
So we can all decide
How to live and how to do
What's right instead of wrong,
To lead us so that we can lead
And learn how to be strong.
Why God created teachers,
In His wisdom and His grace,
Was to help us learn to make our world
A better, wiser place.
Such a great reminder of WHY we do what we do each day. Summer is coming and it makes me a little sad...seriously. Have I mentioned that I LOVE being a teacher? :)
Tuesday, May 22, 2012
Saturday, May 12, 2012
It's Almost Mother's Day...Again
So, I think one reason I started this blog was to get some of my thoughts out and see what they look like on paper, or whatever. We all have parts of our lives that we don't share with people on a regular basis, but we wished they knew about us, right? Well, maybe that's just me. So here goes...I am not a mom.
I really thought I would be. We tried, honestly, we did. Some medication, some surgery, a lot of tests and prayers, but it didn't work. Some people would say and have said to me that we gave up. Maybe we did. Maybe sometimes you ask God for what you want and He says "no". But just to put it out there...I really DID want to be a mom. There was a time when we were in the midst of the early disappointment of trying that I doubted if I wanted it "enough" and brought this on myself. But I hope that's really not the way things work.
It's very weird to be at this stage of my life and not be a mom. It's hard to know how to answer when people ask about whether or not we have kids. I'm not young enough anymore to say "maybe one day".That reality has been hitting hard lately. I think I thought I would be one of those people that would pop up pregnant out of the blue. You know, just when you least expect it, expect it. But I really do think the answer is "no".
Of course, adoption is a wonderful choice and alternative. One that we have explored from time to time. It has just not been our answer. Does that make us selfish or self centered as some in my life have suggested? I hope not. I have devoted my last 18 years to loving and teaching other people's children. I hope selfish and self centered is not the way that others see me, but all I can do is just keep living...with the answer of "no". Living happily, trying to live with joy instead of bitterness. Counting my many, many rich blessings and striving to do what is right and good.
Please know, I am happy for you and your babies. I DO enjoy celebrating your showers, seeing your nurseries, and going to birthday parties. Your sweet children's pictures as they grow make me smile! So, please don't tiptoe around me after you've read this. It was not an easy choice to write this(not that that many people are reading it!). Writing this shows you the hole in my heart. And I try to be strong and not let it show.
It can be lonely to be the only one in the room to not have kids...look around. There's not that many of us out here. While it's not a choice I made, it is the life I live. I am happy. I have great love with my sweet husband, family, and furry babies. I am trying to walk the path of trust and happiness. It's a choice we all make every day, no matter our circumstances.
Wow, I already feel lighter now that I've written this out. Thank you if you read this. I hope you know me a little better now and maybe I know myself a little better, too!
Happy Mother's day to all you incredible moms out there. Your daily sacrifices and selflessness is inspiring. Keep growing happy, confident children. It's what our world needs! :)
I really thought I would be. We tried, honestly, we did. Some medication, some surgery, a lot of tests and prayers, but it didn't work. Some people would say and have said to me that we gave up. Maybe we did. Maybe sometimes you ask God for what you want and He says "no". But just to put it out there...I really DID want to be a mom. There was a time when we were in the midst of the early disappointment of trying that I doubted if I wanted it "enough" and brought this on myself. But I hope that's really not the way things work.
It's very weird to be at this stage of my life and not be a mom. It's hard to know how to answer when people ask about whether or not we have kids. I'm not young enough anymore to say "maybe one day".That reality has been hitting hard lately. I think I thought I would be one of those people that would pop up pregnant out of the blue. You know, just when you least expect it, expect it. But I really do think the answer is "no".
Of course, adoption is a wonderful choice and alternative. One that we have explored from time to time. It has just not been our answer. Does that make us selfish or self centered as some in my life have suggested? I hope not. I have devoted my last 18 years to loving and teaching other people's children. I hope selfish and self centered is not the way that others see me, but all I can do is just keep living...with the answer of "no". Living happily, trying to live with joy instead of bitterness. Counting my many, many rich blessings and striving to do what is right and good.
Please know, I am happy for you and your babies. I DO enjoy celebrating your showers, seeing your nurseries, and going to birthday parties. Your sweet children's pictures as they grow make me smile! So, please don't tiptoe around me after you've read this. It was not an easy choice to write this(not that that many people are reading it!). Writing this shows you the hole in my heart. And I try to be strong and not let it show.
It can be lonely to be the only one in the room to not have kids...look around. There's not that many of us out here. While it's not a choice I made, it is the life I live. I am happy. I have great love with my sweet husband, family, and furry babies. I am trying to walk the path of trust and happiness. It's a choice we all make every day, no matter our circumstances.
Wow, I already feel lighter now that I've written this out. Thank you if you read this. I hope you know me a little better now and maybe I know myself a little better, too!
Happy Mother's day to all you incredible moms out there. Your daily sacrifices and selflessness is inspiring. Keep growing happy, confident children. It's what our world needs! :)
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